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I got thinking today about kindergarten. I don’t remember having much in the way of expectations of my first foray into school, no recollection of anything my mother told me, no sense of excitement or dread. Kindergarten was just something I was expected to do, so I did it. When the school bus arrived at our stop that first morning, I climbed up that Everest of steps without a single look back at my mother (unlike my neighbor Bobby — two years my senior — who bawled like an infant and threw a spectacular temper-tantrum that embarrassed both him and his mother).
My teacher, Mrs. Davenport, wasn’t much taller than the kids she was hired to teach; a chunky, round-bodied woman with te face of a squeezed lemon and a soul of arsenic. It was obvious right away that she didn’t like kids and had no interest in teaching us anything of importance. Of course back then (we’re talking 1962), kindergarten “teaching” was an over-inflated term. Ours was a half-day made up of play time, story time, snack time, and nap time before they shoveled us back into the bus for the long trip home. I’m not sure what Mrs. Davenport had to complain about. Her job was more that of a babysitter than an actual teacher, but maybe that was her problem. Maybe she resented the perceived waste of her time and talent. At any rate, she treated us like the enemy and interacted with us as little as possible, saving her voice for reprimands, sarcasm, and little else.
Play I knew how to do, though what happened in our classroom was drab compared to the rich, imaginative romps in my back yard. Girls were doomed to play “house” and “kitchen” and (in extreme cases) “school,” while the boys were allowed to rumpus a bit with oversized cardboard building blocks (something I would rather have done). Story time was coupled with snack time, occupying both our minds and our stomachs. I have a vague remembrance of chocolate chip cookies and small glass bottles of whole milk, though I can’t remember a single story. Nap time was a total waste. I hadn’t taken a nap at home in years and the idea of doing so now, smack in the middle of the day when I was wide awake and there were so many things I’d rather be doing was an alien and ungainly notion. I lay on my thin mat and stared at the ceiling, while all around me my classmates snored like sailors. Every now and then I’d be reprimanded to close my eyes. I would dutifully comply, then roll onto my side away from the teacher and open them again, laying in silence until the call came to wake up, put on our coats, and go home.
All in all, it was an uninspiring nine months. On the other hand, that time was my first journey into the greater world, the first indication that there was something of import beyond the walls of my home, a thing to explore and know, the sense of an adventure as yet unrealized. What that adventure would bring — failure as well as glory, sadness coupled with joy — were ideas as yet unrealized, vague notions behind the clouds in my eyes. All I knew then…all I know now…is that I burned to know it all.